I'm back to where i started off.
Life's been like a fluctuating chart.
Or,a 360 degrees turn.
It's time for a change.
Leave everything behind,here,intact.
Moving on to somewhere new.
Hopefully,a better space.

<3

Should i say this is just too much,too much of coincidence.
I don't know what the above wants to put me through.
Day started off bad enough.
My performance in school has dropped drastically.
He said i wasn't as powerful as before,
She said she could sense a difference on how i performed today.
Body physically there,but mind and soul was somewhere else.
Just finished sketches for drawing ess lec.
Before i was ready to hit the bed because im only left with less than four hours of sleep.

Today was bittersweet.
Hectic morning till afternoon in studio,
skipped breakfast and lunch..
Hard work paid off well in the end,which was all that matters.
Two down.

I've talked and planned with the parents.
It saddens me with the sudden changes made.
I guess all i can do now is to wait patiently with fingers crossed.

I don't have a thing with maps.I can't READ.
I've been spending the past 3hours trying to figure out tampines park connector and the expressways.
Locations and parts of pasir ris.
Submission deadline tomorrow.
The only way to relieve the amount of stress generating in me,
is to sing out loud.
And bff send me the right song at the right time.
Back to work.

Tommorrow's start of a new block.
So many things going through my mind,it can barely contain anymore.
Starting on my individual.
Doubt i can do better than P1 anyways..
It makes me want to collapse...
I'm not going to make it,i know for sure.
I'm scared,i'm very scared.
Can i quit.?

I don't have to put on those shoes and hit the tracks.
And it's already a drastic change in less than 2 days.
I totally lost the luxury of eating what i crave.
I feel sick.

And they're taking years..
I'm falling asleep here
 out of home 
Starting my individual.
Hair fall,deep frowns.

HAHA,my younger sis when she was two,cute isnt she?
Happen to chance upon this while clearing my folders.
How about another one?

I wish i could fall into deep slumber for as long as i want to,without any interupption like my mum's screaming voice.My eye's were all puffy when i woke up due to idk what,and my physical rythmn was just unacceptable.I weighed myself on the scale and got a shock of my life.Then back looking into the mirror again,and asked myself a million questions.

Celebrated Russ's birthday yesterday with the people,bhav,des,daph,andrea,gab,cccy,mel,chris,and farhan.Had great fun especially when watching all of them play para-para and scoring almost the highest rank.WTH?Yes,what the hell.Hilariously funny too.Cabbed home with daph and des.I was dead-beat,dropped on my couch as soon as i got home,and dragged myself to the toilet to pluck those lens out of my eyes because they had been killing me for the past few hours.Did i say i was dead-beat,but i simply can't get to sleep.Not even a phone call to bff,or a pill could soothe me into slumber.

I guess i have big issues with myself,letting the days pass by and telling myself everything's fine because it's a new year.Until i realise yesterday night,it's not as easy as it seems to be.Filled with anxious secret and uncertainty,i'm completely oblivious to my surroundings at some point of time.The only people whom i can really rely on are probably my parents,but then on second thoughts,if i do,things will change.Yes,trapped in some way.
My new year resolutions,maybe some just can't be reached as much as you want to.
Deadline for Topic one on monday,and i need to rush through the slides,guess this is the only thing that can keep me company right now without any doubt.

Ciao.